"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight." Proverbs 3:5-6
My husband and I have never leaned so hard on that scripture then in the May of 2011; when our son Elijah suffered a grand mal seizure while out shopping and nearly took his life. As my son was laying in front of me while 3 off duty nurses work to save his life I could do nothing but cry out to God out loud praying and weeping for my son pleading with God. Laying my hands on his stiff pale body praying LIFE into him and showering him with my wet tears of love and pain. As I was praying out to God I remembered the vision God gave me when I was pregnant with Elijah. A vision of him praying over thousands and healing the sick. I always knew God has a big purpose for Elijah but I did't know it would start out like this.
For the next 3 days Elijah continued to battle deathly seizures and started to develop partial pyrolysis on one side of his body. We noticed we were slowly loosing our once happy bubbly little boy to these fits and didn't know how to stop them or what to do. So we turned to God and leaned on him, having him guide us through this journey.
Still today we are fighting to find out what is causing Elijah's seizures. We have nearly lost him 4 times and even though he is going through this he still continues to lift his hands to worship music and WORSHIP God! Elijah teaches us every day the true meaning of life. To live it to your fullest and to have joy in everything. Every day Elijah wakes with a smile and love to give to all those he meets. His journey has been long and hard but we continue to seek God and have been drawn even closer to Him through it.
As mama's we have to face difficult choices that face us following God's leading even when the outcome is hazy, even when the right choice frightens us. You may toss and turn for nights without finding peace and joy in your choice. How do you determine the right choice? Obey the guidance you find in God's word, earnestly pray and seek trusted counsel, then trust God with the outcome.
"Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything." James 1:2-4
Your probably telling yourself "joy for facing my trials!?! Haha, yeah right!" But the thing is...the trials will come regardless of your attitude or how your try to out run them. They leave at a time of God's choosing. So in all reality, we really have no choice at all. And that's okay, because the decision we DO have is if we choose to accept God's blessings through the trials we face. Or we can be resistant to his working in our lives. God has a lesson through each of his trials. I feel sometimes it's God's way of telling us "wake up oh sleeper, I'm here. Remember me!?!" Because God longs for us to spend time with us and all to often we get caught up in this world.
But at least you can know that your not alone! We've ALL struggled. We've all hurt, felt broken, and felt ashamed. But no matter what , God is still always right there, helping us, nudging us, providing a way for us to stand under the weight of this world. I think most Christian's would agree with me that any trial they've gone through has impacted their lives in at least one positive way. The serious struggles we face yields serious faith. Most often, the serious struggles are the ones that most remind us to focus on God. I know when my husband and I were faced with the battle of finding out our son had Epilepsy we couldn't help but to feel so close to God and know through our journey we would continue to put God first. It's never easy and yet I don't think it's supposed to be easy. That's what makes us stronger in the end. Right? The trials we face may break us down but it's to only build us back up even stronger then before and we gain that much more faith through Christ.
"The LORD will fight for you; you need only to be still." Exodus 14:14
Do you ever feel like the enemy is hot on your heels, roaring accusations like thunder, and trying to threaten you with destruction? God knows the enemy's tactics. He is not passive, He's a ferocious fighter for you. You have the ULTIMATE defender on your side, battling the rage for you! You only need to be brave enough to be still. Sometimes we just need to learn to Trust and Obey. The funny thing is, is these two words go together like bread and butter. Yet every day we face difficult situations that seem to defy simple solutions. As women, we face difficult choices- the right course of care for a sick child, which bills to pay on time, following God's leading even when the outcome seems hazy, even when the right choice frightens us. You may even toss and turn for nights without finding peace in your choices. But yet, how do we determine the right choice? Obey the guidance you find in God's word, earnestly pray and seek trusted counsel, then trust God with the outcome.
Remember God wants us to know his JOY now! Not tomorrow or the next day, not when we're healed, not when our sorrow has passed, not when we've become successful, not when our children or spouses change, not when we've lost weight, but NOW - this day...Today! Lasting joy does not reside in God's blessings, God's favor, God's gifts or God's people, but only in God himself!
So I just want to take this time right now to encourage you to stop right now to seek the Lord and draw upon him to find your Joy- Your Strength through your trials and journey!
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